Well, I'm back from Cape Cod, back to the routine. The holidays are over, so no more excuses to slack off. Winter-een-mas is just around the bend, which means it's time to kick it into overdrive for me.
I had a good time this weekend. I got to see a lot of family that I haven't seen since last Christmas. My parents just had a brand new outdoor hot tub installed, so I got to try that out a bit on Christmas eve. My best friend Toby stopped by for a bit on Saturday. I got to spend a bit of time with Matt, Briana and Britanny before I left for the Cape. So all in all I got to spend at least a little bit of time with all of the people I love this holiday.
I got some really great gifts. I'm sure by now most of you have seen the Xbot statue, which sits proudly next to me on my desk. I got a boatload of books and DVD's, including some of my favorite older movies like Serpico and The Falcon and the Snowman. I got hardcover copies of my favorite books, The Song of Ice and Fire series by George R.R. Martin, because I've read my paperbacks into utter ruin. I got a lot trades... the Marvel 1602 trade collection is the one I'm looking forward to reading the most. I also got The Watchers trade paperback, which I've heard tell was a good storyline. I also got a lot of alcohol for Christmas. My parents gave me a shotglass checkers set, and a bottle of Black Cherry and Vanilla vodka. My sister gave me a bunch of alcohol and some condoms. Toby, my best friend, gave me a polish cheese babka from New York. If you've never had babka, you are seriously missing out. Toby is from Brooklyn originally, and every time I would go over his house, and they had been back to NY recently, they had babka. And I coveted it. It's delicious. I've never seen it anywhere except New York.
This past week I've been in a bit of a weird place. My head and my heart have been twisted around something that's been pre-occupying most of my thoughts. I'm really trying to make a distinction between my pre-existing patterns, my instincts, and what is truly best for all involved. It's difficult, but I think I'm doing fairly well with it so far. We'll see how long it lasts. I'm really eager to change some of my ways, when it comes to relationships, but I'm weighed down by serious doubts that it's possible, and suspicions that I'll never be able to change.